Feeling like a 2nd class citizen
feeing like I’m on my final lap to an end
Its been near on 4 months since the beginning of this spiral
I won’t continue to go through this pain again
I sit there with my eyes closed every morning
Dreaming of any way to see an end
The night before I went to sleep I whispered to myself
not letting anyone else here me
I don’t want to go through this pain again
I don’t want to go through this pain again 
I won’t go through this pain again
I whispered to myself so to not let anyone else here me
I don’t want to go through this pain again


As the dark approaches I feel a failure
Another day redundant feeling recluse
haven’t fell into alcohol to massage the feelings
I’d rather soberly meet these feelings i go through
I don’t want to go through this pain again
I don’t want to go through this pain again
I won’t go through this pain again

Sunday Morning I hear laughter outside my Bedroom
My Children’s presence keep me from skipping to the end
I try to keep them from noticing me 
so down and ever so closely out
I know I never could no
I could never put them through this pain my friend
I could never put them through this pain my friend
I could never put them through this pain my friend

I have to whisper to myself that there will be better days ahead